When will the weather be fine??

I can't imagine my wedding day will be so unforgettable. This is a miracle! Friends, Guests, come to me with a smiling face. I feel so happy when I see them smile. But, 12 hours earlier, I was sitting at Raymond's home and was feeling so depress. What a big contrast! I really feel that I have done something in my life. I really feel that I have completed something in my life.

From time to time, I am moving on and stuck. Friend, your words are really reminding me. Reminding me to be tough and strong. I don't think I am that tough, strong and brave. Why I am over 30 and still need some many improvement? Life is not easy at all or I have to much un reachable aims? I always question myself. No matter how I perform or behave, friend, you are really trying to set me in the right direction and give a large tolerance for my bad behavior. I have set many aims, resolutions, targets, rules, etc. for myself. But, what I really want to do for my rest of life is to do what I want to do. To chase my dream. My dream is to be good to Kat. To be good to my friends, to work hard and achieve a financial security, to use my time to learn and understand this world. This world is full of knowledge, a vast amount of knowledge. I do have to respect to knowledge and be serious with it. Learning and then improve is my pleasure. ....Well you came and opened me And now there's ...

I don't know if anyone reading this, even Karson. What had happened last 3 month? - Anaylst Position - Interview with RBS / CS / Lipper. And rejected by all of them. - Prepare Wedding - Moving apartment I finally have a place to live on my own. That's very nice to do so. So, what's next? Prepare the wedding is quite hard for my financial aspect. Moving apartment at the same time is even adding more financial loading for me. I am very lucky to have Kat with me. She share half of that so that I can breath.

Today, I received an offer letter from MSCI. After signing and returning this letter to MSCI, I will become an employee in MSCI Barra. My mind is not really happy, because the offer is not that attractive. But, it is a good starting point anyway. I believe personality, mentality, is the key to fit into i-bank. Skills and knowledge is the tools to work well in the bank. I should happy that I have the "hard-core" skills and certificates. I need to have excellent "soft" skills as well to work in finance industry. The aim to work in finance is to have a smart salary. And it is necessary to take up the responsibility and pressure at the same time in order to have "smart salary". I agree my past and present finance condition is not enough. So, I agree myself heading into the i-bank. That's why. This is a short note to let me remeber what is happened today.

2006年快要為過去。 這一年裹, 我成功天地完成了碩士課程。 更取得了優異的成績。 此是一件對我的將來非常重要的事。我決心要改變自己﹐不論工作上﹐ 生活上﹐ 性格上﹐人際上都要更進一步。我開始我的計劃全因我的心中記着相士的一句话。2006年有一個機會﹐要一定好好把握﹐否則我便要一再平庸過多好幾年。就這樣﹐我定下決心去找出路。在KARSON的建議下﹐我嘗試報讀WARWICK MSC FM。理科始終是我的強項﹐我很快已回服到大學的水平。在家人和KAT的技持下﹐我有幸到英國留學。就這樣﹐我展開了完全不同的人生。英國生活的一年中﹐我非常用心地去求學﹐智識上無疑我已遠遠超越我的已前。但同時我又發現實在太多人比我更有學問﹐思想比我更成熟﹐更獨立﹐志向更堅決。我頓時發覺可前進空間之大﹐此時我又發現自己的渺小﹐自己的志嚮不清﹐自己過去的過失。一切就明明白白的說清我為何到現在一點成就到沒有﹐更明白地說就是大學中畢業後﹐一點成的事到沒做到。回想一下﹐我的生命根本就沒有什麼我可以自滿的事例。反而只有我自以為是﹐常因丁點的聰明而滿以順利。此就是為何我在畢業後的時間﹐沒有了學校的保護下而我完全不能在社會立足。看來我一切的事﹐都沒有好好做!考試可以拿八十分就夠。但社會做事﹐就不可能。社會的競爭大多。而社會亦無升級制度。在2006年﹐我非常有幸地留學英國﹐而我卻有用功的去求學問。然而﹐我還有很多方面還要努力去改善。我的性格上有一點問題﹐而我的外表﹐行為亦有不少問題。最明顯的﹐就是我沒有去改善英語﹐此亦引至我沒有好好準備CV﹐沒有努力去找工作。而我亦因而要回港。另外﹐我的心理素質亦不成﹐在回港之後﹐我發現我的自我行為和投行的FRONTOFFICE員工的行為﹐還有一段距離。此實為重要。而此亦非MSC課程中所能函授。我要不斷磨練自己﹐在言行﹐思想﹐性格﹐這些基本因素中求進步﹐才可以有機會成為業中的一員。 2007年﹐應該是我重點提升自己行為﹐性格﹐思想的一年。我相信只有通過精進自己的內在﹐然後在外在方面才有機會發揮。否則﹐一切眼前的機會﹐只會白廢。我要做到自強不息。以上所言﹐談之易﹐但要做到﹐可期困難。能洞察自己難﹐要明白自己難﹐要自我求進﹐更難。吾一大缺點﹐是說多做少。做之不恆。吾2006下半年所按排﹐少有完成。吾之鬥志﹐以非2004年般強烈。那鬥志﹐只可看成一瞬間的衝動。轉化不了為吾自生...